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  "I gave you a combined four million dollars in cash, property and stock assets. I gave it to you without a fight even though you were unfaithful and that was the reason for our divorce. We had a prenuptial agreement that specifically stated infidelity as a means of foregoing any combined assets. I didn't have to give you a fucking dime, but I did so that you and Jason would not only be cared for, but that you would be able to live comfortably for the rest of your lives! Then you have the nerve to march into my office and demand another six million on top of what you already have and then claim that I am somehow denying my son because I won't give in to your greed! I take care of my son. I pay for his school, his medical care, his clothes and I still contribute to his trust fund. All of those are things that I do above what is stated in our divorce decree and child support documents. I will continue to do so and to give him whatever he needs. But I will not give you another dime. The next time you decided to come in here and demand money from me you had better bring your attorney with you!"

  Jack screamed back at his ex-wife with such an intense fury that no one knew what to say or do. Then he looked around and realized that everyone in the office was staring at him. Embarrassed, Jack wiped his hand across his face and sulked back into his office. Jade seemed pleased at his outburst and the clear discomfort it caused him. She walked back to the elevator with a smug look on her face.

  "Wow, what a bitch," Alyssa said under her breath. June was still standing nearby and she overheard Alyssa's comment.

  "That's for sure," June said as she walked back to her own desk.

  For the rest of the day, Jack remained in his office and he told his secretary to hold his calls unless they were urgent. It didn't take long for the rumor mill to start spinning. People kept meeting at the water cooler and in the break room to gossip about what had happened. Alyssa didn't want to talk behind Jack's back, but curiosity was getting the better of her. Casually she went into the break room to get a cup of coffee, but she was really eavesdropping on June and another paralegal named Allison.

  "I hear that Jack hasn't been with anyone since the divorce but that Jade has gone through several lovers and she was quite public about it too," said Allison with the connotation of a true eavesdropper.

  "Public is an understatement. She actually filmed herself fucking two guys and she posted the video to an amateur sex website. Then she emailed the link to Jack. How's that for a giant 'fuck you' to end a marriage," June replied in hushed tones.

  "Where did you hear that?" Allison asked skeptically.

  "I was working on secretarial duties that day. Jack asked me to go through his emails and sort out the junk from the important stuff. I'm the one who found the email. I didn't know that is what the link contained. It just said something like 'Jack, here is a link to some important information about our divorce.' I was there when he clicked on it. Poor Jack didn't say a word, but he went as pale as a ghost and then he shut down the computer."

  June raised her eyebrows and took a sip of her coffee as she shared this new information. At this point June noticed that Alyssa was listening and she regarded her intently. Alyssa looked down shamefully at her own coffee cup.

  "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to eavesdrop. I couldn't help but overhear and well what you were saying was hard to ignore," Alyssa said sheepishly. June and Allison just laughed in response, then they invited Alyssa to join in on the conversation.

  "Jack is so sweet and so incredibly good looking, I can't understand why his wife would want to cheat on him in the first place. Oh, if only I could find a man like that," Alyssa said dreamily.

  "Jack is really nice and he is handsome for sure, but Jade didn't care about that. She was in it for the money right from the beginning and Jack knew it too. I think that was why they had a pre-nup in the first place, to minimize the drama when things inevitably fell apart" June added.

  "Holy shit, this is minimal drama? What would she have done if he had left her high and dry?" Allison asked with a bewildered expression on her face.

  "Oh my God, I can only imagine! Shit would have hit the fan, that's for sure," June replied. "Anyway if you ladies are interested, that video is on a website called 'Amateur Fuck Sluts' and it is called 'Scorned Wife Gets Double Revenge,' but you didn't hear it from me." Then June winked at the other two ladies and she headed back to her cubicle. Allison and Alyssa decided that they had better get back to work as well.

  Later that night Alyssa just couldn't help herself. She had to see if the video rumor was true. She locked her front door, turned down her lights and got out her laptop. She typed in the name of the website and it came up with hundreds of home videos of couples and amateur movies. The site featured everything from regular; every day couples to the most extreme, kinky scenarios imaginable. Alyssa wondered how she would find the right one in all amidst the sheer volume of homemade pornography. After a few seconds of feeling completely overwhelmed, Alyssa discovered a search box at the top right hand corner of the website. She tried to remember what the name of the video was. She typed in "scorned wife gets revenge" and it came up right away. It had a lot of hits too and a five star rating. Figures, she is perfect looking. Alyssa thought as she hovered her finger over the enter button. She debated whether or not she really wanted to watch the video. On one hand she was practically frothing at the mouth with insatiable curiosity. On the other hand she was crazy jealous of this woman. Alyssa didn't know if she really wanted to see her having sex. Would Jack's ex look so perfect when her naked body was exposed for all to see? What if she looked even better, all sprawled out and sporting an expression of pure ecstasy on her face? Could Alyssa handle it? Finally she put her negative thoughts to the back of her mind and she worked up the nerve to click the button.

  The video came up and there was Jade, in all her magnificent glory. Those can't be her real breasts, there's no way. Alyssa thought bitterly and yes, Jade looked even better naked, with her perfect body on display for the whole world to see and potentially get off on. You could tell that she spent a great deal of time in the gym, working to keep it that way. Jade did not have an expressing of pleasure on her face though. It looked far more malicious and evil, even though she was clearly trying to be sexy throughout the whole thing. Alyssa could tell that she was just trying to get under Jack's skin with this stupid video. Irritated, Alyssa shut off the amateur porn. Then she sat back in her chair brooding over it. She felt really devastated that Jack's ex-wife was so pretty. She seriously looked like a model and even though Alyssa was gorgeous too, she didn't have the Heidi Klum thing going on that Jade had.

  Alyssa tried to tell herself that she needed to stop lusting after Jack. She knew she was starting to fall for him and that was only going to lead to heartache. Still when she drifted off to sleep that night, his face immediately entered her dreams. In her sleep she saw him looming over her, looking at her with lust filled eyes and caressing her body longingly. Before long Alyssa was having the classic wet dream. When she awoke she remembered it clearly and she was angry with herself. Ugh, why can't I get him out of my head! She scorned herself bitterly. Then she tried to tell herself that it was time that she tried to meet someone else. Maybe if she had a boyfriend, or at least got laid every now and again she wouldn't obsess over a man that was basically unattainable.

  With that thought, Alyssa got out of bed and went over to her computer. Reluctantly, she signed up for one of those internet dating sites. She knew she needed to be wary of men that she met online, but she also knew that with her crazy work schedule and limited social life, this was her best chance to find someone new. He didn't have to be perfect, just someone to help her to forget any ideas of being with Jack. So she completed her profile and uploaded one of her better pictures, then she clicked submit. The waiting game had begun.

  Chapter Four: Bail Denied

  It didn't take long for Alyssa to start getting hits on her dating profile. So many men responded to her that it was a bit overwhelming. Some of the responses were easy to weed ou
t. These were the perverts who somehow found it appropriate to send her pictures of their junk taken from their cell phones. Others were just ignorant in the way they propositioned her. One guy wrote, "You look like fun, wanna get your pussy pounded tonight?" Asshole. Alyssa thought to herself as she deleted his email. Despite all the jackasses who responded, Alyssa was feeling pretty good about the dating site. There were a lot of emails from decent sounding guys and several of them were pretty good looking too. She sent replies to a few of her favorites and then she figured she would just wait and see what happens.

  While at work, Alyssa tried really hard not to think about Jack or watch him as he walked by her desk. She forced herself to resist the fantasies that crept into her thoughts when he was near. She tried her absolute best not to lust after him, but when he smiled at her or spoke to her the result was always the same. He always left her wishing he was hers. Some days it was even harder to resist thinking of him than others.

  Three days after Alyssa signed up for the dating site was a prime example. Jack had asked her to step in on a case he was working on. It was her first opportunity to work with him. It was only a minor case and basically all she had to do was draft up a motion for one of his clients and do some paperwork. He didn't even really talk to her except when he was bringing her files or collecting her work, but she could see him all day long. They were in the same room together and she could see his incredible smile, smell his cologne, delight in the sexy way that he leaned back in his chair and tapped his pen in the air while he read his documents. God, she could listen to his calming yet commanding voice all day long.

  Alyssa only got the opportunity to work with Jack for two days until the case was over. Then he told her she did a fantastic job and then she had to return to her regular duties and her cubicle in the main room. It was a wonderful two days though, but oh how she wanted him. Being that close to him certainly made it more difficult for her to even think about letting go. By the time the weekend came she had forgotten all about how jealous she was of Jack's ex-wife and about how she convinced herself to stop thinking about him. The truth is, Alyssa wanted him even more than she did before.

  On Saturday morning, Alyssa tried to focus on cleaning her apartment and taking care of some other chores, but her thoughts were of Jack. The couple of days she had spent in his presence left her floating on a cloud. She was leaning against her mop handle thinking of how incredible he looked in his Armani suit that the sudden ringing of her home phone took her by surprise. She didn't get many calls at home; almost everyone called her cell instead. She looked at the caller ID. It said New York State Police. A feeling of dread over took Alyssa.

  "Hello?" she answered meekly.

  "Alyssa?" It was her mother's voice. "Please don't hang up because this is my only call. I've been arrested."

  "Arrested, for what?" Alyssa demanded in a mixture of shock and anger.

  "Prostitution mostly…"

  "What do you mean by mostly?" Alyssa questioned. A sickness swelled in Alyssa's stomach as she awaited her mother's response.

  "There may be a small charge for possession as well."

  Alyssa sighed with obvious frustration. She closed her eyes and started to sink to the floor. Then she fought back her tears and stood upright once again. She brought the phone back up to her ear.

  "Are you asking for bail?" Alyssa asked angrily.

  "It's fifty thousand, but you know you only really need five grand cash and something to use as collateral.

  "Yeah, well I don't have that, Mom and I can't get it! I already spent every goddamned cent I had getting you out of trouble the last time. Speaking of which, you were supposed to either get clean or starting paying me back and obviously you have not made any effort to do either one. Where do you think I am going to get another five thousand dollars from? Not to mention that I do not own anything that I can use as collateral for the rest of the bond. I can't exactly pull money out of my ass!" There were a few long moments of silence and soft crying before Alyssa's mother spoke again. She sniffed and then she made a bold suggestion.

  "Do you…do you remember Trevor Barnes? He's the man you met the last time you were at my place, when I borrowed the money from you." Valerie asked her daughter through gentle sobs.

  "Yes, mother I remember him quite well. What about him? Please tell me you don't owe him any more money!"

  "He might be willing to lend you the money in exchange for a date. He did express in interest in you." This comment was met with cold silence. Valerie's suggestion was simply unfathomable! After several very long seconds, Alyssa finally responded with the coldest and harshest tone that Valerie had ever heard from her daughter.

  "Sorry, Mother. I'm not like you. I don't fuck for money."

  Alyssa slammed the phone down and then she fell to the floor in her kitchen. She laid there on the linoleum, sobbing uncontrollably for nearly forty-five minutes. Snot and tears ran down her face and covered the floor beneath her head. She knew that hanging up on her mother and refusing to help meant that her mother would likely disown her. She knew that it meant that they may never speak again and that she had turned her back on her mom in a time of great need. She also knew though, that this was her mother's only real chance at getting the help that she so desperately needed. She had to hit bottom and hit it hard to see that she had a real problem, one that would cost her everything if she didn't get clean. Alyssa's decision had been made out of love but it still stung deep inside her heart.

  When Alyssa finally stopped crying she made herself get up off of the kitchen floor. She got out her mop once more and she cleaned the floor where she had been lying. Then she got a glimpse of her appearance in the hall way mirror. Her face and eyes was red and her nose was running. Her hair was all matted up on the side and she looked simply dreadful. Frustrated she made her way to the shower, where she just ended up crying some more.

  After taking her shower, Alyssa decided to go to the gym for a good workout. She hadn't been to the gym in a very long time because of her long hours at work. Alyssa was mad at herself for not keeping up with her exercises. She wanted to look nice for Jack, but the truth is that Alyssa spent more of her free time masturbating than anything else since she had first met him. This was a truly enjoyable activity but it didn't leave a lot of time for exercise. Today she needed a different kind of release. When Alyssa got to the gym she did a few quick stretches and then she headed for the treadmills. She turned on her ipod and blasted hard rock music to fuel her energy as she ran as long and as hard as she could. The treadmill featured a screen that displayed running paths from all over the world. She set it to Barcelona and she just lost herself in the music and the display screen. When she could finally reached the point where she couldn't run anymore, she realized that she had put nine miles on the treadmill. Her average was about three so she figured she would be feeling this workout the next day.

  Feeling exhausted from her run, Alyssa decided to go over to the smoothie bar to refuel. She ordered a Tropical Blast, which was a delicious mix of pineapple, cherries, coconut, mangoes and bananas with a little whey protein and wheat germ for an added kick. While she was waiting for her drink she was kind of spacing out, still lost in the upset of what had happened with her mother. She didn't even notice when her coworker, June sat down beside her.

  "Alyssa?" June asked. Still lost in her own thoughts, it took a minute for Alyssa to notice that June was there and that she was talking to her.

  "Oh, June! I'm sorry. I'm having a really bad day and I was kind of lost in my thoughts. I honestly didn't see you there. God I hope you didn't think I was being rude or ignoring you or something," Alyssa spoke as tears started streaming down her face. She looked at June with an apologetic smile and an aura of sadness surrounded her very being.

  "Honey, are you alright? Do you want to talk about it?" June asked as she placed her hand on Alyssa's shoulder in a comforting gesture. June tried to look directly at Alyssa, but she kept her head turned away in an att
empt to hide her tears. Finally it became too much and Alyssa reached for a napkin from the bar and she wiped away her tears and blew her nose as quietly as she could.

  "No, I don't want to bother you with my problems. We don't even know each other that well," said Alyssa shyly. She was clearly embarrassed by her open display of emotion. June noticed this and she figured that perhaps talking about personal business in a public place would add to Alyssa's distress, so she made another suggestion.

  "Come on, Alyssa. I live nearby. Let me make you some lunch and we'll talk it out. I know we don't know each other all that well, but I am a good listener and it seems like you need to unload."

  After a few more moments of persuasive conversation, June finally convinced Alyssa to come to her apartment. The two girls left the gym together on foot and they walked down the street. June lived only two blocks away in a high-rise apartment building. It was definitely a nicer place than where Alyssa lived. When they got up to June's apartment, Alyssa marveled at how beautifully decorated it was. June had matching furniture and elegant art pieces. She had an abundance of plants and sculptures, and area rugs that complimented everything else just perfectly.

  Alyssa was envious of both June's sense of style and at the amount of money that she had in the apartment. It seemed unfair that they did the same job, for the same employers and yet June came home to elegance while Alyssa came home to Ramen noodles and thrift store furniture. Alyssa had to remind herself that she had only been working for Coleman, Patters and Schleicher for about two months and June had been there for years. No doubt June made a higher wage than the new hires, plus she probably didn't have any drug addicted family members bleeding her dry every time they got themselves into trouble.

  "Your apartment is absolutely stunning!" Alyssa exclaimed. It was a genuine compliment despite her jealousy.

  "Thank you, Alyssa. Look I know we don't know each other very well, but I think we could become good friends. It seems like you are going through a lot right now and I want to be here for you. So I'm just gonna make us some lunch and some drinks and then we'll talk about it, okay?"